Still working on ideas for a book. I want to write badly. I want to journal, freelance or something. I want to step back from the rat race. I'd like to replace my income with writing or at least match it to some extent. I'm decent at customer service so maybe I could "sell" my ideas. Who knows.

I'm doing research on what it would take to be a "writer". I know anyone can write but I would just like to think that I could stand out if possible. I could use my awesome customer service skills to pay the bills. I just have a hard time getting started. I have no story at the moment, a vague character build up and no where to point it all. The net is loaded with writing programs, software and websites that promise to bring the writer out in you. I just don't buy it.

Thank God for the weekends. It's funny to me how you can bend over backwards for people, help them out the best way you know how to then they say shit about you. Simply amazing. It's stuff like that that really frustrates me. But since I'm the nice person I am, I don't say anything. I just go with it take a deep breath and move on. More later........

I'm wanting to step out of my customer service uniform and do something different. I just don't know where to start. I've been doing this for about a year, been with the company for about two. I'm grateful for my job, but I just don't enjoy it any more. I'm the sounding board for pissed off customers who want their stuff yesterday. But hey, that's my job. My intentions are good but my action is not. I want to quit and write or film full time, but I have no back up material. Nothing that could save me in case it back fired. I'm the usual 9-5er that has bills and obligations that the mighty dollar has control over. I can't afford to cut my own throat.

I'm downing this cup of coffee contemplating my next move. My head is full of ideas, but not that any of them will get done. I have great intentions but never enough action. I'm a very poor manager of time. Time and motivation are reclusive to me. I have a ton of things that I should be doing but probably won't. I'm working on a documentary that will include a hunting trip with my brothers. I look forward to this as it will not fit any kind of mold that a documentary is supposed to be. It's mainly for fun. I enjoy filming so I thought I would try to make something of it. In this short paragraph, writing to the world is a little more challenging than I thought. I hope it doesn't get boring for anyone especially me, because when I hit that point, I'm done. Thanks for your time.